I really hesitated about writing this because, I was well, kinda embarrassed. Without good explanation even to myself, how can I talk about this to others.  After inner contemplation, the realization that many others must be going though the same stuff.   So, I wanted to share how I have dealt with this.

Well it finally happened… I had read stories of people falling off the training wagon, and I indeed let it happen to me. Just after thanksgiving this past year until three weeks ago, you see, well, um, errhh… I lost my motivation. Suddenly my desire/inspiration/motivation to get over to the gym or face the elements to get in consistent triathlon work outs just dwindled to almost nothing.

After putting in TONS of work to achieve the level of triathlon fitness, out of left field…I just stopped. Sadly, this felt like the scene in Forrest Gump when he finally stopped running…and responds to the cry from his followers why are you stopping. He replied, “I’m tired now”.

I cannot really put into words what happened exactly, but I am realizing that this is the best thing that could of happened for triathlon training.

As usual, I was looking for a finish line, not enjoying the journey. This sport has brought so much fulfillment to my heart and confidence to my core that stopping was illogical. I guess I’m hard wired to try to figure stuff out, but this was a mystery that had no answer.  It was clear to me that as days went by and pounds crept back on, I began to feel bad about my lack of motivation.

My first “real” workout after falling off the wagon

Finally after beating myself up enough, I finally got motivated.   I decided on an easy run, it was a nice day and said I was going to try to get in 3 miles.  It was one of the best runs on my life.  The blood flowing again the sweat oozing from my body was cleansing in every way.  My 3 miles turned into 8 miles, My fears subsided, my heart was back and it felt awesome!

The swim that followed the next day was unbelievable…I have never felt so excited to be in the water.

Researchers say that it takes at least 25 days to start or break a habit.  I tend to agree, as I am approaching 25 days back, the desire and focus are effortless again.  By keeping a better balance in my life, it is helping me get back on the wagon.  The “triathlon” part of my life seems far more need and rewarding on all levels.  Moral of my story, enjoy the ride, recharge your triathlon batteries whenever possible.  Break it up,shake it up, keep yourself on your toes. Try replacing one workout a week with something completely different out of your comfort zone.  I believe this will make you a better overall athlete and keep you motivated when the road gets long.